Saturday, January 8, 2011
This is a lovely picture from my family's property. It was taken last weekend when we all got together and went on a family hike. It was a beautiful, but cold day. The scenery was spectacular. I wish this was the scenario for everything around me right now. Beautiful and spectacular. This however is not the case.
I feel like I am at a place in life where I am being pulled in so many directions that nothing I do is spectacular nor beautiful. Wherever I am, I can think of a million other things I need to be doing. I'm constantly trying to do a better job at work, do a better job at home, do a better job at school, work out, clean up, tick tock, tick tock. So many directions all demanding so little time. Everything gets a half assed job it feels. Nothing is excellent, nothing is spectacular. Somewhere along the way mediocrity has become the norm.
I have decided that rather than coming up with a ton of New Year's Resolutions that I probably won't keep anyway, I need to focus on living in the moment and really being present in what I do. Wherever I am, I need to be there. Not making mental lists of everything else I need to be doing or worrying about what isn't done. Because there are always going to be things that aren't done. I need to appreciate the here and now because at any given moment that is the only certain thing that we all have. I'm really beginning to see what John Lennon meant when he said "Life is what happens when we are busy making other plans".
So while it is about a week over due, I guess my plan for 2011 is to be present in my own life. To appreciate what I have and to make the most of every day. After all, I have right here in my life, exactly what I want. I have the love of my best friend, I have my family back and really, what more does a girl need?
Well except for beautiful shoes maybe...but otherwise, I'm covered.